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First Days of College

4:07 AM - Posted by jana - 2 comments

The first time, I entered my school, I felt I was unprepared. I felt lacking. I felt I was incapable in the crowd of smart, well-rounded and diverse youngsters.

When I first saw my room, I felt whoa, whatta'. I guess it wasn't what I expected. Vandals everywhere, stickers posted at the walls, pale greenish spectrum painted around. When I saw it, I immediately wanted to transfer to another place. I thought I chose the wrong location. It was so hot. It was so uncomfortable. It was untidy in a way.

When we went to the city, I said, DARN, I am so away from the city. I felt away from the lights and the noise of the city, that I have always sought for. I cried while eating my lasagna in front of my family. How petty the reasons were. I said I wasn't at all amazed by the dirt of the CR which I am not used to. I wasn't comfortable with the place I'm staying. I felt like I have to compare every single detail that I have seen, though insignificant and petty, to the place where my sister once stayed. I felt everything that I expected went drastically wrong. Then I openly asked my mom if I can transfer and enroll in another institution. She then said, it was always up to me. She's just there to back me up.

Into Rm 24 I transferred. Though I felt afraid to again open my eyes into another horrific aura, I confidently knocked at the door of the room I would stay permanently. But unexpectedly, I smiled, relieved with what I saw. I guess I'm staying in one of the cleanest room in the place. Thanks to MAMA, PAPA and ATE>>everything went better.

I courageously accepted the battle. When they left me, I didn't feel the pain yet. I didn't feel any aches yet until finally I opened my room with three beds emptied and unoccupied, that's the time I cried my heart out.

Hours of loneliness. No talks. No chatters. Nothing.

Then I decided to come down and mingle. But I can't seem to start any conversation.

But yes, I made acquaintances. But they went home immediately.

Until the night when I was searching for a staff to give me the key, the counter was empty. With no one to talk to, I hesitantly ask the people outside and they end up understanding the language I can speak. Instantly, we became friends. Because of them, I met more people. Until I end up meeting and knowing all of them at the dorm.

Until that day, we ate together. We chatted. We explored.

I'm very much happy to know them.

Though, I met scary professors. I know I'm in for a great challenge. But still I'm happy that at least, they are the reasons why the doubts, eeries, dilemmas and all, lessen. They helped me somehow. However, I'm still frightened by the battle I'll be having, at least I know I have a troop to back me up.

Not all first impressions are right. And sometimes, strangers become reliable friends.

Last Days before College

10:04 PM - Posted by jana - 0 comments

Ger Anne and I

Well, we met last May 14, 2010 at the Sunken Garden. We played practically like toddlers at the playground.

We walked around the oval. And we get to freshen up with our MANGO shakes.;)

Well these pictures are simple proofs that taking photos of ourselves is our hobby:)

See you Ger!

Election 2010 (my perspective)

10:46 PM - Posted by jana - 0 comments

I was rooting for G1Bo to win.
I couldn't vote though, but I thought he would be a brilliant and productive leader.

But the sad fact is that he was with the administration who they say is the most corrupt.

It was really a political suicide for him.

But I was still amazed by his principles and brilliant answers. I thought, we're not talking of merely personalities here but abilities also.

Unfortunately, the people now because of their sufferings and because of poverty are looking for a great change. NOynOy was the symbol of that change. And I admit it. Thought I felt that he is the least able to change the country due to his lack of actions, I knew that he was true to his words. He had the blood of a hero and a loved president. Good luck to him.!!

Though we lost with G1BO. I know he will still be there, not as a president perhaps but a wise citizen.

And for the rest of the country, I'd like to say, it's not the victory of the candidates elected for office and the lost of the ones who spent almost all of their money for this election, leaving empty-handed.

But it's our stand to be one.;)

I'm hoping the country to be better this time.

GO PINOYs! I'm certainly proud to be one.;)

xoxo,

JANA

Reminiscing Bangkok

5:13 AM - Posted by jana - 0 comments

I just arrived @ the airport where I met Kim Chui.;)haha

at the Hotel.

River Cruise with my family.

I'm loving the sceneries.;)

My parents also loved it. Ui, kissing below the bridge.haha

The food was GREAT!

And those were my experiences @ Bangkok. :)

What I Did Today

4:46 AM - Posted by jana - 0 comments

from dresses to jeans

I did my chores today...and for the first time, I was enthusiastic about it;)

Summer Splash

6:06 AM - Posted by jana - 0 comments

Summer is definitely the season of the year wherein you decide what you’ll do for the day. There are no schedules. What’s a must for summer is to have fun and enjoy every minute.

I am a very random person. I do what I want to do. And so I did.

It was a hot May afternoon and I decided to take a swim at the back of our house. I was with my helper. When she left me alone to get my sister, I felt alone. But that was the first time that I felt happy by the mere reason that I am alone. It was all serene. And I get to just float there and get to be amazed by the intelligence of the Creator. I saw how the sun set. I felt the coldness of the sea. I was allured by the fairytale love of the waves and sand.

While resting, I got to have an ice cream from my sister. I asked her to take a picture of me. I refused to tell her why. I just demanded and then she reluctantly granted my request.